Tuesday, 28 July 2020

Thoughts

I'm not sure I'm still in the right frame of mind to explain how I feel. Yesterday still feels raw, to hear your puppy scream like that gives you the shivers. As it happens there seems to be no marks on Orin, hopefully there was more noise and fear than actual contact, but can I ever trust Loki again? I still feel bitter and angry, to be honest I've only felt like this towards one of my dogs before and that was with Jezi when we couldn't stop her fighting with the other bitches. With Jezi the solution and sanity came in the form of Nico, he became her everything and the two live their separate lives from the main pack. (Though Nico occasionally sneaks in a walk with the ladies) I can't separate Loki, there isn't another room, another garden and I feel at a loss as to how to deal with him. I can't put him with Nico and Jezi, Nico hates him and that is out of character for Nico as he likes everyone really.
Loki is currently alone in the kennel, that is not the life I want for him but I'm not in the frame of mind to deal with him right now, so for everyone's safety he's currently better in there. The atmosphere in the house is so calm and relaxed. Ross is on the sofa with me and Kaiah and Orin are playing. The other girls are lying around calmly waiting for me to get ready to walk. I think the best thing to do is put everyone back in their relevant groups to walk, I don't envisage any difficulties with that. Loki is perfect on a walk, actually I couldn't wish for better. In a lot of ways I couldn't wish for a more perfect dog, that's why it's so difficult, I swear he's Jekyll and Hyde and you never know which version he is from one minute to another.
Right .. here goes ...


The walks went well. I walked Orin with the girls, as I do when walking from home. Everyone is now back together, but there is tension. As soon as Orin moves Loki is tense, his inability to relax is always concerning. I've ordered some scullcap and valerian for him, anything is worth a go. I honestly don't know what to do to improve the situation. I was obviously wrong when I thought his issues was just with Ross .. he obviously has issues with other male dogs within the house. He is not a dominant aggressive dog, that would be easier to deal with, sadly he is far more complex than that. I feel Loki is a tense stressed dog, he is who he is and all we can do is try to manage the situation. We have both tried approaching it from numerous directions, but nothing works. I think for safety sake we must now consider options ... but rehoming him is not an option I would currently consider!

3 comments:

Lin said...

It's such a shame that Loki is how he is , he's such a lovely boy who we all love , and it's so upsetting about his strange behaviour x

Helen said...

I was reading the meaning of Loki’s name on the Blanik page - do you think in a small way he seems to be living up to it? So sorry to know you are struggling with him as I guess you will be worrying about how you could have done things differently maybe. X

Tali said...

No Helen I don't believe in that kind of thing, a name is just a name. Other than not buy him in the first place I don't see how we could have done things differently. He's been treated like ever other Blanik over the last 30 years, but as I've said before when Mikey died I guess he lost his way ...