It's almost 2 years and my official "recovery period" is almost over. I was
told that any symptoms that are still with you after 2 years remain with you.
Mostly I'm doing Ok, I feel so blessed to have recovered so well. I suffer from
fatigue, my short term memory is affected, sometimes I can't find the right word
in the right language for the sentence, and I occasionally have vision
disturbances. Well I can cope with that!
But sometimes, just sometimes I just feel so sorry for myself. The
tiredness that still hits me like a train crash causes a chain reaction of all
the other symptoms. It's not something I can compare to anything else. My head
becomes foggy and headachy, with occasionally blurring of my vision from both
eyes but always to the left. I can't concentrate or store information. I don't
understand simple sentences that I read and the words I need to string a
sentence together elude me. I get irritable with myself or tearful .. then I get
symptoms of indigestion and if I push it further I feel like I'm going to vomit.
I never know when it's going to catch up with me or how far it's going to go,
but one thing I have learned is that resting and coming off the laptop and
staying off it helps .. That's hard when you prefer Facebook to TV! I rarely
make it past 2pm without having to sleep, and when I do I struggle to function
in the evening, or maybe for the few days that follow.
I love my dog shows, but I'm exhausted for days after a long trip and
having a co driver has been invaluable, to be honest I doubt I could do the
distances with him now. For that I thank you Mr T. My dogs are fantastic, they
have settled into a routine of an active morning and a lazy afternoon, and on
the days when I just can't get them out in the mornings they still give me a
couple of hours to chill in the afternoon. Even puppies like a nap after lunch!
People continue to ask me how I'm doing? Which is lovely, but I always lie
these days. It's so much easier to say your "fine" isn't it, and I've had a good
teacher with Steve really. Yesterday as I visited a friend and she asked me how
I was, it was on the tip of my tongue to say .. "Well actually .." but the
words "I'm Ok" came out instead!" I also smile politely when people tell me I'm
looking really well ... I think I may get a plaster with "Damaged goods" on it
to go over my forehead ... Haha
But life is good, I'm so happy to still be here with my wonderful husband,
my lovely family and friends and my awesome Blanik family. I see it all
differently now, life goes on, so much to live for and look forward too ..
To quote Robbie yet again ..."I love my Life ..."
To quote Robbie yet again ..."I love my Life ..."
