Wednesday 9 January 2013

I Who Never ....

I'm not afraid to admit that I fear what the next 24 hours will bring. Over the last few days Riley has been pretty lively and eating well, but I'm not naive enough to think that he'd be alright without the metacam. As much as I'd like to stick my head in the sand and carry on as we are, I do realise how quickly the lump is growing.(Before Xmas it was the size of a ping pong ball ... now apparently it feels a damn size bigger!)  If there is a chance of a future then there really is no choice other than to deal with it head on and find out what's going on. To leave him as he is would be neglect, it would be plainly cruel to hope something this size just goes away, when it obviously won't!
In the 80ies/90ies I was a big Marc Almond fan and a lyric from his song "I Who Never" is going round and round in my head today ....
"This could even make me pray
I who never ever ever prays
I who never
I who never"