One More Try

Regarding "That letter."

I guess we all have to do what we believe in our hearts is right. Whether others agree or not is besides the point. Especially if it helps us deal with the situation. So if witting the letter helped you, then in my opinion, so be it!
I've not said much on there about it before, but during the first week of George's sentence I was also finding it very hard to get on with my life. I couldn't function, couldn't sleep and cried so much it was crazy. Sometimes one feels a "Freeek" for having these uncontrolable feelings and emotions, sometimes on the surface it really is easier to hide them and keep quite. But sometimes that's just not possible! We also had major problems at home during that first week of the sentence, so that didn't help. And to be honest I felt I came really close to the edge. But I had to pull myself together, I have a job that I "have" to do, animals that need me and a husband that during the last few weeks has needed me more than ever. So life goes on, it has too.
I do agree with Pippy, no one can tells us how we should or shouldn't feel about George. Sometimes I don't understand why I feel the way I do myself, sometimes I wish I could change it, but we are who we are and we feel what we feel. And let's face it, my life could never be complete without him there to turn to in my hour of need!

I've written a lot here in the last few weeks, I blasted my brains out on George's music. I've also spent time thinking and crying as I walk my dogs in the mountain. Sometimes I felt so very alone and so very very sad. But It all helps, it gets things into prospective I guess.
So back to the beginning, as long as someones actions doesn't have a negative response for themselves or for George, then go for it. Do what you need to do to help you through... and To quote dear KT...."Just my opinion of course!"

AS....

A Baby Tali with Granny Nikki in 2005

Still wearing her "heart" in 2009

OK this is a strange one, but it's honestly true.
When I came home from WKC at the end of August I couldn't find Tali's collar. I pulled everything out of the show bag, at least twice. Asha and Mikey's collars were in the bag, but no sign of Tali's collar. I thoroughly went through the small bag that I carry the camera etc in, still no sign. I looked under the seats in the van, nothing. Steve also looked. The collar wasn't valuable or had any sentiment attached to it but her purple heart tag was on it, and she's had that since she was a pup. Yeah I guess I was a little sad about that. Anyway I gave up deciding that I had probably lost it at the show, or maybe when we stopped on the way home. I decided to be strong, not buy a new one and give her Krizzie's collar, then I went to Pet's at Home to get a new tag.
So yesterday, on the floor in the living room....there was the collar. Not hidden, not under or behind anything...just there on the floor by the fish tank....it's been 5 weeks since we lost it.....answers on a post card please...

Shoot The Dog

Cwm Dulyn Today

Mikey, Finlay, Louis and Kiri

Looking Good - Mr Mikey

1,2,3

Well there were so many reasons not to go to a companion show today, it's been a hard couple of weeks and at the moment for me there's no light at the end of the tunnel! But the sun was shinning, and I guess we all need a break from the "Same old Same old" so Sharon and I went for an afternoon out.
Anyway we had a great day. Mikey won pastoral, with Maya second, and Maya then went on to win the Open class.
Finlay won Best Rescue and along with Maya picked up a couple of other rosetts in the novelty classes.

1,2,3-Falling in love with you was easy for me

I was So chuffed and to be honest I was a little emotional when Finn won Best Rescue.

Maya, with some of her rossetts

Listen Without Prejudice Vol 1

I’ve always been a George Michael fan and just love this album. It boasts great song after great song. A standout track? That’s hard to choose but Mother’s Pride is a favourite of mine. I’m lucky enough to count George as a friend.

Ronan Keating

Where Did Your Heart Go?

George Michael: Pillars of pop have to commit real crimes - Julie Burchill
"I love George Michael. I consider him a songwriter of massive talent, occasionally touched with genius. I met him only once, just before Wham! broke up, and a small thing he did on that occasion spoke volumes. I rocked up to interview him for The Times, to his flat in Kensington, knocked on the door - and there he stood, in a doorway that opened right on to the busy street. In a business in which even minor stars have lackeys to open doors and pour drinks ("Shall I be mother?" he twinkled over the teapot – and I STILL didn't catch on...) this was more than refreshing – it was revealing.
His crime, while foolish and certainly deserving of the short custodial sentence it received, hurt no one. So when he gets out of jail next month, how about calling off what appears to be open season on this sweet, soulful, solitary man? So many vile crimes have been committed by crooning cretins. Yet GM is pilloried far more than any wife-beating Beatle, paedophiliac ex-Stone or child-pornography-downloading member of The Who.
I suspect his real crime, in the eyes of many, is being true to himself; a complex, tormented but ultimately honest man who will have no truck with the Big Lie that families are fun and that monogamous marriage, be it straight or gay, is the ultimate goal for everyone. Never mind, George, just download some kiddie porn, sleep with a 13-year-old and beat up a woman, and you too can become a pillar of the pop establishment."

Dear Friends

Thanks to a dear friend for making me feel less insane and sending me a PM. (below) It's so nice to realise that I'm not the only one who is currently finding it hard to function. It's so nice to have friends out there who relate to me, even if we've never had the pleasure of meeting in person. Sometimes we have language difficulties, but we have so much else in common that we always get by!
Even in a place which we consider safe, these last few weeks have been difficult and there having several differences of opinion. Health I know, but it's so nice to have friends who's are totally on the same wave length.
Thank you again Karin for taking the time to write and allowing me to print it here, and thank you too for all the times that you've been there for me... Your messages on my page on GMF are always appreciated and bring a smile to my face.
I'd also like to take this opportunity to thank the friends around me for unquestionably support. Life would not be the same without you. You know who you are....

Hugs from "The man"
"I'm flabbergasted that there are people who feel like I do. Because I really sometimes feel silly crying over an article in some scum paper (don't read the comments ever, because I'm really not interrested in other people's "opinion"), or finding myself talking to his picture popping up on the screen. That man is my world, for years I tried to "forget"/hide that, because it feels a bit inappropriate for a "woman like me". But since the 25livetour, I not want to hide anymore. So people around me know I love this man, but they don't understand what this love really mean. As I said yesterday, I even don't know for sure myself. He is part of me, always in my mind and heart. Playing in my fantasies and a "voice" in my consciousness. I miss him when I don't "hear" of him a day (and that can be music or news). And while I'm feeling all of that I try to keep that to myself, because there is this little thing in me that says "you're insane". So other people don't understand me, but I don't make them any wiser and I can't really explain why... Is it shame, is it to private???
As I read things like you wrote on your blog (and sometimes I read between the lines of posts in GMF from other members also) I feel just that little bit less silly, I'm not the only one. (which sometimes makes me "jealous" too because he is so mine, if you understand what I mean...)
Thanks for being on this forum, thanks for writing so personal on your blog, thanks for being my friend and thanks for listening (reading)... Wishing you were closer to me, because I really would have visit you one day!!!"

Love In Need Of Love Today

Kemp: 'Michael Is Doing Okay'
SPANDAU BALLET star MARTIN KEMP has confirmed his pal GEORGE MICHAEL is "doing okay" and coping "as well as you can expect" in prison as he serves out his eight-week sentence.
The former Wham! star has been behind bars since last week (14Sep10) when he was jailed for possession of cannabis and driving under the influence of drugs following a car crash in north London in July (10).
But despite Michael's recent troubles, Kemp has defended the singer, insisting the star is a good man and a "wonderful" friend.
He tells Britain's Daybreak show, "I have to say, he is like one of my best friends and he is the most wonderful man that I know, absolutely without a word of a lie he is fantastic. And if you're watching today (George), I hope you're well."
And Kemp insists Michael is coping with his jail time, adding, "What can you say, you know, what can you say? I wouldn't like to talk for him... I heard he's doing okay. He's doing as well as you can expect."

Awww - Martin, thank you. Your a gentleman!

Faith

Nothing Looks The Same In The Light

Some of the kids out today