Thank you all for your kind and honest words, I really do appreciate them. I'm still totally in shock at the loss of our lovely Kaiah, the house is silent! I decided to have Kaiah spayed because she was so badly affected by her hormones, for about 8 weeks after every season she wasn't the Kaiah we knew and all the other dogs were treading on eggs shells around her - then she'd be back to normal, till the next season. With no pans for a second litter I thought it was the better option, and then I hoped for 6 years or so of happy, funny, bubbly Kaiah. I'm absolutely devastated that the decision I made, be it with the best will in the world, but the decision I made took her to her death, that's a hard pill to swallow and one I won't come to terms with easily.
