Whilst walking today, some friends from the past came into my thoughts. Jill, I worked wither her for a fair few years at The Ozanam Centre, we both left around the same time, she went to Tesco and I went to Freshfields. Over the years I've looked for her, and asked about her, but she seems to have totally vanished. She used to live in Groeslon, on what was then the main road between Groeslon and Penygroes, she was divorced with grown up kids and a couple of dogs. She was my kitchen assistant on the breakfast shift, I recall she was a lot older than me, so in her 50ies then ... I'd love to know if she's OK, but no one seems to know. Then I thought of Audrey, is it wrong of me to presume that she has died? Her husband died in 2019 ... the house can be found on an online estate agent's list, but no sign of Audrey, I've even checked the deaths on The Daily Post online, nothing, but Alec isn't there either. Audrey was quite a force of nature, always right, even when she was so obviously wrong! LOL (She insisted Krizzie was sable! LOL)
Then the other one broke into my thought, she is uninvited but somehow makes her way there every single day. How crazy that a 57-year-old woman can feel like a school girl, I was scared of taking my mother's car to the garage for her the other day, scared in case we came face to face, thankfully we didn't. I hate confrontation, I hate the way she has made me feel, I wish I could shake her, I wish I could never think about her again. It's not voluntary, like I said I could be doing something as basic as washing up .. and there she is in my head again. Actually it's quite damaging, when I'm at my lowest I even think of her then... as in she'll be pleased that I'm failing! I've always tried to get on with everyone, to know I'm hated is bad enough, but to be hated for something I didn't do, well that is kind of crippling!
Anyway with a man sitting on a rock on the hill watching me I continued on my walk. My knee has been awful the last two days, so I turned back from the narrow track to find something flatter. Meerah and Sammi were off the lead the whole time, I have to say Meerah is amazing, so well-behaved for one so young, and with a super recall, equal to her granny Kaiah. Of course, Sammi is well-behaved, but somehow that is expected of her now. I feel sorry for Zeus, especially in the lake. He wants to run with Meerah, but there is no way I can let him off the lead, if only we could have a chat eh! Looking at it another way, at least he's there and getting time out with the girls.
Of course Zeus' lead has been photoshopped out of this photo, but it does show that he can go quite a distance. I played a little with the settings on the phone and liked the photos I got on the portrait setting. I love it when people get photos on angles, I tried that too, (Second photo down) funny how mine looks naff!!!
