Our Poor House

Ah Well... they are having fun so who cares!!!!
Ziva's paying king of the castle with Danni .. Jezi joining in a little.
Mikey cuddling up with me, Asha on the sofa and Tali on the dog bed.

Just Found This

                                                                                    Whilst scrawling through some old photos on someone else's facebook page I came across this photo. I remember it well, Flint and Deeside open show 2010. Mikey was 1st in PG and Kai 2nd in Open. We had a lot of fun that day, took lots of photos and messed about with cream cakes. We got some lovely photos of them all in stance and some wonderful headshots, but this is the photo that "got to me" today. The warmth between us is obvious, he leans on my leg and I stroke his head, his tail wagging. At the time it meant nothing special, it was just everyday life, now it means the world....

Just A Couple ...

Of nice shots of Jezi yesterday

Just to make life interesting Jezi has come in season today ...

I guess the fun really begins now!

Llyn Ffynhonnau

It was the first trip to the lake for the girls today. At only seven and a half months it was too far to walk so we took the Blanik Bus three quarters of the way and walked the rest. On such a lovely day it was an opportunity too good to miss. Kiri came too, knowing how much she loves it how could I not take her? Young an old alike just loved it!

Tali - with "That Toy"

Jezi - Loving it

Louis, Kiri and Finlay

Ziva and Danni following Mikey about

Beautiful Asha

I know not everyone see it, but she does remind me of her Dad. I pray he was with me there today.

Well Done Yesterday Asha

 Asha won BOB again for me yesterday

Thanks To Mark for handling her in the class

As per usual for the breed not a second look in the run off for BIS.

Also well done to Mikey Mikey on his first
and to Ziva on a second in a class of six GSD puppies.

It was lovely to see Enya, really pleased she was 4th.

Jezi and Danni misbehaving at the back

Asha and Tali being good

and Mikey and Ziva at the front

Just Thinking Aloud

Kiri and Kai - Nov 2010

I was sitting in the field with the kids today, happy in their company but sad, so sad inside. I hope you will understand what I'm trying to say here, I mean, I hope I can explain myself clearly. I have a house full of life, believe me with 9 dogs and 5 cats there's never a dull moment. But still I have this huge emptiness inside me, the biggest presence in my life and our home is now missing. The silence is deafening, without doubt Kai was the noisiest dog I've ever owned, with Jay and Storm fighting for second place! (Kai sounded almost like a hound, or even a pack of hounds at times!)
I just can't get my head around loosing him, it was only 3 weeks since we first took him to the vet, and I only went then because I was going with Louis and was a little unhappy with his behaviour. In just 3 weeks he was taken from me. I had no time to prepare, if one can prepare for such things anyway. Over the years I've loved and lost many a best friend, but this has left me shattered.

1999 The Boys At The Back
Blade, Dexi and Jake
with Nikki, Seffe and Kiri in the front

As I sit there thinking Kiri pushes in for a cuddle and I start to think about her life. Then I realised that over her 13 years of life she has lived with ever GSD that I have ever owned myself ... and Pepsi, she lived with Pepsi too. Kiri was born in 1999 and my first GSD, Blade died in 2001. What a life she's had, if only others had been so lucky. She's seen so many come and go, hard to believe she's out lived Krizzie, Jay, Storm and now Kai .... somehow it's just not right! Don't get me wrong, I don't begrudge her a thing, I just wish the other had seen the years she's had.
Tomorrow I have a show, I hope to go but i also feel an uncertainty about going alone. I have to pull myself together, for all the other I have to go..... And for Kai, I owe him so much and I have the responsibility of keeping his name alive and the honor of showing off his magnificent progeny.... yeah I'll go, I'll do it for you Kai!

Sunshine On A Rainy Day

Kai's family, granddaughters Ziva and Jezi, daughter Asha,

 granddaughter Danni and Son Mikey

 with Wife Tali in the front.

(Danni fans please note, she's the only one tied to a fence post!)

Pensioners Party

Kiri, Finlay and Louis

It's Mine!

I'd like to thank everyone for all the lovely poems, cards, messages and calls we've recieved since loosing Kai. 

Those of you who knew him will appreciate how apt this is ....        

 If I like it, it's mine.

If it's in my mouth, it's mine.

If I can take it from you, it's mine.

If I had it a little while ago, it's mine.

If it's mine, it must never appear to be yours in any way.

If I'm chewing something, all the pieces are mine.

If it looks just like mine, it is mine.

If I saw it first, it's mine.

If you are playing with something and you put it down, it automatically becomes mine

If it use to be yours. Get over it, it's mine.

If it's broken and doesn't squeek ....
 it's yours

My Beautiful Big Dog

Kai The Hooligan - March 08

It's the silence that gets me today, it's not been this quiet here for 4 years. How many times did I threaten to kill him if he didn't "shut the F**k up?" But I'd pay anything to hear his individual howling bark once more! Four years, that's all the time we had, but the pleasure and privilege of his company was without comparison. Actually it's 4 years to the month since he joined us at Blanik. In that time he wormed his way into the forefront of my heart, and now he has left me and broken my heart.
I guess it all started in 2007. Most of you know that my beautiful family was ripped apart in that year. Maybe with hindsight I could accept Seffe and Dexi dying three weeks apart, they were a good age but to loose Jay and Krizzie as well took me over the edge. So when I was told by Mark at a show early in 2008 that Kaiser Vom Conbhairean was for sale my brain went into overdrive. I'd seen the dog at numerous shows going back to when he was a puppy, and I had really admired the dog. After some persuasive pleading with Steve, Sharon and I went off to Zakasia to meet Kaiser, and obviously came back with him! (as if we wouldn't!) Maybe at the time my reasons for buying him were not the "right" ones for my kennel; and maybe during those first few noisy loutish months I had a tad of regret at bringing this hooligan into my home. But as we got to really know each other I guess we both fell in love! He was dedicated and loyal to me, he gave me his all and wouldn't even go in the field with Steve if I stayed in the house, he decided he was without doubt "my" dog.

The Show Dog Stood By Breeder Heather.

Typical of his breed Kai was aloof with strangers unless they came bearing toys, but there was one other person that Kai loved without question. His Aunty Shaz ... as he called her! (And he was the only one who got away with that!) Even during his last few minutes seeing Sharon lifted his mood. I'm glad they had the opportunity to say good, friends always should.
So many funny tales come to mind, he was without doubt a big clown, the joker in the pack. As a mature adult he would never start trouble, but was quite happy to finish it if it was needed. He was dismissive of the other males here, though they often tested him there was no doubt they feared him and he ruled simply by his outstanding presence.  His love of food was only slightly over shadowed by his obsession for toys and the contents of any bag. No bag was safe in his company and he's steal anything from under your nose, if it was there he always presumed it was for him. Only a few weeks ago you may recall the disappearance of 6 eggs and 3 frozen onion rings!

In His Favourite Place -Cwn Dulyn

Kai was only mated to 4 bitches, sadly there's was only one litter born. The first bitch missed, Tali as you know had a lovely litter, the third bitch reabsorbed her litter and dear Tara this year lost her full term pups due to a catalogue of events that in my opinion could have been avoided! What I would do to have one of those babies now!

Today I feel sick to the pit of my stomach, I can't imagine not ever holding him again. That huge neck and coat, those soft endearing eyes, always trusting and kind. His naughty playful nature, that spark of puppy mischievousness that never left him. How do I move on without him? How do I cook a meal in that kitchen without his interference and distraction? I don't know, but for the sake of his children and his grandchildren I do have to find the strength.

18/3/12 - Out In The Sun with his New Toy

Kai my darling I may have more to say tomorrow but for now I have to leave this, the tears hurt my eyes and I can type no more. My big beautiful dog thank you for everything you gave my, I'm heartbroken and I love you so much. Please stay with me forever and show me the way through life. Rest in peace my darling, until I'm privileged to meet you again I will always cherish my wonderful memory's of you. You were a credit to your breed and your breeder and more importantly my closest friend.
Nos Da My Awesome Dog.
You Have Been Loved

Thank you ..

....For all the condolenc messages we've received. We are totally overwhelmed by the kindness and compassion shown to us today. Thanks to Hilary for this beautiful picture

I can't get my head around this, I'm so heartbroken I just can't function. I was privileged to share a life with him I know, but 4 years just wasn't long enough. He was so special to me, I loved him so much. I feel so bitter and twisted right now. My big beautiful dog, he was awesome, huge in every way. How could anyone have not loved him? He gave me so much in such a short time.
Yesterday morning he didn't eat and was very quite, he was coughing a lot and drooling. but by the afternoon he was much brighter and we sat in the sun in the field with his toys. In the evening he actually chewed on a bone for a bit before cuddling up on the sofa to sleep.
This morning he was really low again, he had spots on his tongue, blood in his mouth and he was totally white. There was also spit with blood on it on the kitchen floor. The vets thinks that he had an infection internally and that the cancer had just gone "wild" and with no spleen to help fight it he became very ill very quickly. Sadly we had no choice
I'm walking around in a daze and all I can think is my big beautiful dog!