I'm so pleased that this day is almost at an end, but I do think the build up to it has been worse than the day. I've winged a few times and sobbed my heart out a couple of times. I hope there will be a time when I can remember the good times, I really hope the pain fades and that I can remember her with warmth and a smile, and not with the heartache and tears that currently haunt me. I miss you so much Kaiah bach ... I'm so so sorry ...
