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| A Young Finlay |
Last night I tried again, Finlay was mooching about at my feet looking for crumbs and I tried to stroke him. Sadly it was the same response and he turned and walked away. I thought I'd got used to it, but last night I could feel myself welling up as I wondered "what ever have I done to deserve this treatment from him?" Nico as observant as ever must have seen my tear filled eyes and came straight over for a cuddle and give me reassurance.
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| Jay At Crufts - You Move I Bark |
Finlay is so hurtful towards me, it's like someone sticks a knife in my heart. Why, why me? I saved his bloody life, I gave him all this. Hell I know he doesn't owe me anything but never have I been treated like this by any dog I've ever owned before. My dogs usually adore me, as he did for the first few years, but over the last few years he has distanced himself from me so much and it's so damn hurtful. I can't think of any incident or any point at which this started, it just felt like he gradually seemed to start disliking me. I feed him, I walk him .. oh yeah he likes to come for walks with me, that's the only time when I actually do seem important to him, the rest of the time I'm someone to be ignored.
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| Simba |
I know all dogs are different, but this special breed that I adore are usually so faithful and dedicated to their owner, and the boys are usually so affectionate. Including Finlay I have over the years owned 11 males; 5 of them coming to Blanik as older puppies or young adults, all with a "history" a story to tell of a very different life. I guess Jay wasn't as cuddly as some of the others, but he was ridiculously attached to me and he taught me how to do a brilliant recall! Simba had big issues, and I blame it all on his previous owners, with just a little socialising and training he quickly became a better man!
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| The Awesom Kaiser |
Kai was full of confidence and had huge strength of character, to be fair in my opinion all his previous owners had done wrong was not had the time to give him and life in a kennel did not suit Kai. And then there's Nico, now he had had a hard time. When he arrived he was a crumbling wreck ... now he's confident, happy and a tad demanding of my time. One thing the 4 of them have in common with the males bred at Blanik, or brought in as youngsters is they have all been devoted to us, they always give all of themselves.
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| My Nico |
Still life continues and Finlay plods along day by day. I feed him, I walk him, I clean up after him. I continue to love him from the distance he has put between us. There's nothing else I can do, I can't force him to be stroked, I can't insist that I be allowed to cuddle him, sadly though it breaks my heart I have to continue with this relationship on his terms only these days!
Crying again now!
