And the pain of loss is no easier. To loose in it's self is bad enough, but to loose one so special makes it almost unbearably.
I still expect to see you in your "look out" as i come home from work, I hope to hear your individual squeal as I come out of the van; but the silence is painfully deafening and sadly my eyes never deceive me. Though there's always a greeting there's no one insisting on cuddles before I have a chance to go to the loo, no muddy paw marks on my back and no teeth clamping on to my arm. Meal times are back to basics and walks are lacking your charisma and spark. Though your name has been removed I regularly look over to your bed, but your never there. Logically I know that you won't be, but sometimes my mind plays tricks on me and I still expect to see you there.
I had known for a long time that we were living on borrowed time, and I enjoyed ever minute of that time that we spent together. Yes, I knew it was close, but still feel at the end that you were stolen from me too quickly. I thought I was prepared, but found myself more unprepared for the loss than ever! Three beautiful members of my family stolen in one year, one was too many, three has ripped out my heart.
The house is still full of life, goofy boys, naughty young girls and fat cats pulling the Xmas tree down; but to loose such a huge presence leaves an enormous void in our lives and somehow it's hard to move on.
I see you as clear as day in my mind, and love you as much as I did when I could hold you in my arms. But god I miss your physical presence in my life, I miss you so much I can't contain the hurt. My darling Louis I loved/love everything about you, you were always the "one" for me. Your love of life, gentle kind nature, charisma and charm were unequalled ... and your striking good looks were unquestioned. RIP my darling ... Until we meet again I'll be thinking of you.
Thanks to the lovely friends who again respected my wishes. Thanks for the messages, cards and flowers. They mean more than words can say!
I was deeply touched by the kind words on the card I received from Cibyn Vet clinic following our painful loss. I knew that Louis was capable of creating an impact and I'm proud that he touched many during his life. Jill's words were particularly heartfelt and had me in tears but others there too wrote very kind touching and personal messages. 
And the pain of loss is no easier. To loose in it's self is bad enough, but to loose one so special makes it almost unbearably. 
I see you as clear as day in my mind, and love you as much as I did when I could hold you in my arms. But god I miss your physical presence in my life, I miss you so much I can't contain the hurt. My darling Louis I loved/love everything about you, you were always the "one" for me. Your love of life, gentle kind nature, charisma and charm were unequalled ... and your striking good looks were unquestioned. RIP my darling ... Until we meet again I'll be thinking of you.
Like his mother and grandmother before him I was there when he came into the world. My hands were the first to touch him, hold him and caress him. I gave him his first solid meal, took him on his first walk, to his first show, gave him his first cuddle and loved him unconditionally throught out his life. Through all the experiences of his life I was there with him. He only knew love, kindness and friendship. He was born on the mountain, lived on the mountain and now has been laid to rest here on the mountain with his family. And similarly to the way he came into the world it was my hands that held him, touched him and caressed him as he left this world behind; I kissed his head, whispered quietly to him and showed him the love I have always felt for him. He has given and received great love through out his life, the same love he deserved in his passing.
Riley has an abnormality of a lymph gland, they are doing a needle biopsy and he's then coming home to be spoilt rotten whilst we wait for results. They are also going to do FIV and FeLV tests to rule out any further complications. We knew something wasn't right with him... hence the vet appointment. Worse case scenario is Lymphoma ... and we've been there once before this year with Kai. I'm distraught!
George Michael