A memory from 2019 had me in tears again, I wonder if I'll ever be able to remember without crying. Kaiah was a pleasure and a privilege, the surprise I prayed for ... heaven sent, but heaven stole ... I can only hope that she somehow tried to help me in my grief by sending me Beti. Maybe I have to try and look at it this way, if Kaiah hadn't have left me, destroying me as she did, there would never have been a Beti at Blanik, and that would have been a travesty.
