Tears Again

That's me off again ... George's dog outside "looking" at the tributes

How do you explain to her that her "world" has now gone?  Someone clearly thought showing her the tributes may help? You know I guess they are humanising and for me she will have no concept of what she sees, but maybe it helps them to help her, therefore it is worth it.

Happier times with Meg and Abbey

Exploring

Following a run out in the van to Penygroes the little guys had a walk up the track back home. Sadly they discovered sheep shit .. well it was bound to happen! 

Almost A Week Later

I'm still finding it hard to come to terms with the events of last week. What haunts me is that George went to bed "alone" on Xmas Eve and just didn't wake up again. He had plans for Xmas day and if Fadi is to be believed he was looking forward to the day, he had plans for Boxing day and plans for his music in the near future. It really scares me, it makes me realise we should make the most of everyday, whether it's a lazy day on the sofa or a trip out with the friends, we really need to make the most of it all don't we. Steve has tried to comfort me by saying that if you have to go then it's the best way to go, far better than suffering for months waiting for it to happen. I guess he's right, it maybe better for the person, but shattering for the people left behind.
George was so much to me and many other. He was my comfort blanket, my safety net. He was the one I turned to in my darkest hours, I shared all my emotions with him and got myself together because of him. It's so sad that he did not realise his own worth. A lot of the time he had his life set on the destruction button, he disliked the way he looked, he was haunted by the black dog and spent long periods of his life secluded, hidden away from the limelight. Sadly he obviously had an addictive personality and maybe used methods to comfort himself that we would not consider.. But that did not make him a bad man, it simply made him vulnerable.
So now the PM results are inconclusive which means more time for his family waiting for answers. But whatever the conclusion Jack will be burying his son, his sisters their brother, and his friend will be saying their final farewell shortly. Nothing will change that, a man died, whatever the cause a man has died well before his time.
My wish, for what it's worth would be that his funeral is a private affair and not turned into a media circus. George was a private man who shunned the limelight, he deserves to go out with dignity with only the people that are precious to him around him. The gutter press of course may see it very differently!

Tali's Post ..

The Puppies are annoying, noisy and annoying like their mother but not as bad as their grandmother whom I hate! But there is one good thing about them, with puppies come toys, lots and lots of new toys to shred. As the oldest member of the family I feel it is my right to have anything I want. Right?
So I walk into the living room, I don't see like I use to but I knew Loki had just the toy I wanted, you know when you decide it's that one and no other. I walked over to try and take it, but the cheeky little upstart picked it up .. I needed a plan. I kissed him .. he cocked his head on one side, one play bow in front of him and I could tell he was mine, I took a couple of steps back and a raised my paw to his face. He got up to play, I grabbed the toy and moved away. He play bowed in front of me to play, the cheek of him .. so I bit him! As if I'd want to play with him, boys are so stupid!

Some Else' Words ...

Couldn't have said it better myself! 

George Michael's boyfriend has shared a touching tribute to the late star. Fadi Fawaz, 43 - who found the 53-year-old singer dead at his home in Oxfordshire, England, on Christmas Day (25.12.16) - took to Instagram to remember his late lover.
 He wrote: ''I will never stop missing you George the kind and the most beautiful man ever. Xxx.'' Fadi previously took to social media to share some of the details about George's sudden death from heart failure. He tweeted: ''ITs a xmas i will never forget finding your partner dead peacefully in bed first thing in the morning.. I will never stop missing you xx ''  Speaking in an interview, he added: ''We were supposed to be going for Christmas lunch. I went round there to wake him up and he was just gone, lying peacefully in bed. We don't know what happened yet.
''Everything had been very complicated recently, but George was looking forward to Christmas, and so was I. Now everything is ruined. I want people to remember him the way he was - he was a beautiful person.''
Meanwhile, George's former partner Kenny Goss paid tribute to his ex-boyfriend and ''long time love'' after the 'Faith' hitmaker passed away. In a statement, he said: ''I'm heartbroken with the news that my dear friend and long time love George Michael has passed. He was a major part of my life and I loved him very, very much. ''He was an extremely kind and generous man. The beautiful memories and music he brought to the world will always be an important part of my life and those who also loved and admired him.''

The day we met Kenny Goss. 

Everyone Out

Stunning December day

Jezi and Nico

Ziva, Loki, Asha, Sammi and Tali

Kyle

Kaiah

My Kids

No matter what's going on in life someone here always makes you smile. 

Yesterday it was my lovely Ziva .. today it's this lot

 Sammi and her kids messing about

Can you see it? Funny yeah!

My Lovely Ziva

 Her toy of the day

Little smiler

George

From reading messages on twitter it seems that George was not ill, or that is the impression we have been given anyway. Roman Kemp (Martin and Shirley's son) said they were due to spend Boxing Day at "Yog's House." This was posted before Xmas day, and his twitter yesterday was heartfelt and emotional. George's manager said he died of heart failure .. and said it was totally unexpected.
Fadi, George's partner of 4 years seems to have found him, he died in his sleep in their bed. How horrific for him, but still he's slatted by some of the fans who despise him. I don't know the man, he's done me no harm and he and George loved each other, that's enough for me everything else is irrelevant. The problem was that everyone loved Kenny and he was with George for over 10 years, I agree he did have a charm about him. But Kenny and all his addictions where clearly not good for George and all his "disasters" seem to happen whilst he was with Kenny. Just my opinion of course!
A lot of people I know have made their way to lay flowers outside George's house in London. Sisters
Helen and Heidi were kind enough to take a heart shape message card with all our messages to lay outside his home. At least I feel I've been able to say a few short words, though I have to admit I was at a loss as to what I should say ... to say so much in such a short space is impossible.
As fans and members of forums we all new George was a philanthropist, so sad that it's taken such tragedy for the world to see it and hear about it.
This is all so heart breaking, so very sad, sleep tight beautiful George, sleep tight, You Have Been Loved.

Everyone On The Mountain

 Sammi and Loki

 Asha, Ziva and Tali

Jezi and Nico

BIG treat today
 a run out in the van onto the mountain .. and then freedom

And yes they loved it

RIP Beautiful George

Christmas will never be the same will it. I know George had been silent for years, but he did this and then came back into our lives with a huge bang. With a documentary planned for screening in March, the reissue of the remastered "Listen Without Prejudice" due for release in the Spring and rumor of new material, this was not the bang we had been expecting.
I can't deny it I'm devastated, heartbroken. This was the man I turned to in my darkest hours. I never found comfort in the bottom of a bottle, I always found it from him and I always presumed he would be there for me.
Recent photos had shown him looking very different. The lack of clarity of the photos made it hard to see if he had put a lot of weight on, or if he was bloated. Several suggested he was bloated and maybe suffering from some illness, but no one really knew. Apparently he died peacefully in his bed of heart failure, but a PM is still on the cards.
George Michael gave me so much, not only did he enrich my life with his music, but he enriched my life with the wonderful friends I have made through loving him. Like minded people from all over the world that I had the pleasure of getting to know and spending time with. Some of the best days of my life where spent in their and his company ... for me the night in the Echo theater in Liverpool 2012 was without doubt a highlight, a night that I will never forget. I know others in my circle of family, friends and acquaintances just didn't get it; some found amusement in ridiculing him simply to make fun of me or ridiculing me for loving him. When people don't understand something it's easier to make fun of it than to try and see it from the other persons point of view I guess. I gave up trying to explain myself, there is no point when they simply don't want to understand is there.
Today I feel an emptiness, a sadness at the loss, and I thank everyone who had the understanding to message me, it really means a lot. As much as I/we the fans are hurting my heart goes out to George's family, friends and partner who's loss must be unbearable!
These are maybe not "the best" photos but they are so precious as these are my own photos.

No Words

Merry Xmas

Carrot Anyone?

Well the Mini Angel frightened the shit out of me last night .. I gave her and Kyle half a carrot to chew, (cut length ways) I just couldn't believe my eyes, she swallowed hers whole. I've always give pups carrots to chew but have never seen any of them do that before.  I just hope she can digest it now and pass it naturally or it doesn't bare thinking about... One things for sure, no more carrots for Kaiah! I've never had such a greedy puppy here, I thought Asha was bad but this one takes the biscuit ... and the carrot! When we were weaning the litter the boys were really slow, with only the three of them mummy had plenty of milk, but she's been a pig from the beginning and never left a crumb.
It wasn't such a peaceful night last night. Tali needed to go out at 5am and it was too much to ask of the little ones that they would settle again. I did let them out and put them back in their crates but they screamed for about 30 mins before re settling for about an hour or so. So yeah we were up early on Xmas Eve!
Tali is causing us problems with her food. After 3 years of

controlling her IBS with yogurt and tree bark powder she has decided that she now won't eat either! It's a viscous circle really as she needs them to easy her digestive system, but won't eat with them in her food, and she really can't afford to miss many meals. This morning I added a piece of white fish and the liquid I'd cooked it in and at least she ate that. I generally don't believe in adding things to the diet but as I've said before I will always bend the rules with the oldies. Otherwise Tali is still doing well, and really enjoying shredding all the puppy toys that are scattered around.

Sadly no developments with little Kyle bits. I'm not sure if I believe in homeopathy, but I have started him on a course of tablets called "Boy Special" which may help. The ingredients are used with little boys who have the same problems. Anyway there's nothing to loose is there. It's all been so disappointing really, but at least he'll be spending his first Xmas with us. He's got quite attached to Loki, and Loki himself is fantastic with him, well with both pups, the big boy never lets me down!

Blanik "I" Litter

Happy 3rd Birthday to the beautiful Blanik "I" litter, Nico and Ziva's kids  

Then known as Jingle, Belle, Holly, Ivy, Nick and Noel ... now better known as Luna, Sammi, Bonnie, Stella, Caleb and Barney.

10 Weeks Yesterday

 Kaiah with Kyle's Space Hopper

and

Little Boy's Sulking!

Another dry, clean and quiet night in the puppy beds, I'm so thrilled with them both. Someone did scream at 7.35am and I wondered what to do for the best. If I got up and let them out was I "teaching them" that screaming got you your own way or was I ignoring a puppy who needed a pee? With gale force winds and rain I opted to wait and within 5 mins they were silent, so at 7.50am I got up and let them out. It seems I did the right thing, but more by luck than judgment.
Kaiah has been reading the "How To Be A GSD" manual... she's got to the page about taking your master his/her slippers. I don't think she's quite read it correctly though and may have mixed it up with hide and seek. Yes it's me hobbling around in one slipper doing the seeking the last 2 mornings!

Today

Is Sammi Belle's 3rd Birthday. 

Will try and get pics of her and her siblings and post later 

Xmas Visits

Kaiah and Kyle had a lovely time visiting Carrie today. Games in the garden and around the house, followed by biscuits and a sleep in Ben's bed! 

Oops!

Over the last 48 hours we have been gradually getting the pups use to spending time on their own in crates. They need to become individuals not half of a pair, and I desperately wanted my kitchen back. Having spent and hour or two shut in the crates over the last 2 days,  last night was the first night they would spend a whole night alone .. well in the same room as the grannies, Jezi and Loki, but in their own "Space!"
11pm and it's bed time, as I went to check on the bedding I found Jamie in Kyle's bed and threw him out, he was not amused. I went into the kitchen and got them a biscuit, I always throw a biscuit into the crate and say "gwely." (Bed) They then learn to go in and don't have to be forced in. I shut the doors, wished everyone good night and went to bed. The pups screamed for about 20 mins only and we had a quiet restful night.
I was so chuffed with them and at 8am this morning I went to let them out ... Kaiah ran out, chattering and excited ... and then Kyle and Jamie came out of the second crate! Yes he'd gone back in and I'd shut him in with the puppy all night! Both were fine, and Kyle probably enjoyed the company. Will Jamie have learned his lesson? Will he do it again? You know what, yeah I guess he would! He's now had his breakfast and is asleep on the fish tank!

So Proud

Special Photo, and hopefully the first of many

So Proud - 5 generations of Blanik ladies (not in order, I didn't want to disturber the oldies as they were already there) 

Blanik Georgette - Asha - Kaiser Vom Conbhairean x Blanik Frankie 

Blanik Frankie - Tali - Rangermore Arko x Blanik Deeanna 

Blanik Hippy - Ziva - Tirgram Robbi x Blanik Georgette 

Blanik Ivana - Sammi - Conbhairean Danko of Blanik x Blanik Hippy 

and in front Blanik Jeevana - Kaiah - Videx Merlot x Blanik Ivana

Kyle's Post

All that be fuss about little sis'es hears yesday .. well you wanna see hears? This is what you call hears!! Me be a clever boy me be see!

Don't Laugh

But I have to admit today's ears are quite amusing.

Bless her she's so pretty.

Our Tali

"Strange 

Don't you think I'm looking older? 

But something good has happened to me 

Change is a stranger 

You have yet to know .... "

Recycled puppy toys and we have one very happy old lady.

Loki And The Little Guys

Photos aren't quite clear, but great to see the boy playing with the pups. 

He never let's me down!